Day 2 in the Big Blogger House.

Sleeping tablets taken: 1

Cups of tea this morning: 2 (many more to come).

Times spent trying to make myself feel better: 30 mins (more to come).

Nightmares: 3 :(

Mood: Unbelievably low.

Despite the sleeping tablets, the nightmares are back. Worse than ever. They are so real I could swear they are actually happening. The first nightmare was along the same lines as the old ones. But the second was different. Since the break up, I have decided I would like to keep saving and one day go on holiday to New York. But in my nightmare, I went on my own and it was awful. It was like something out of a Saw film. The worst thing was most of the nightmares occured in the early hours of this morning, and I was awake enough to know that they were awful and I wanted out, but not awake enough to do anything about it.

So I decided to spend a while pampering myself to try and boost my mood this morning. For the first time in weeks I have done my make up properly. I'm sure my horses will appreciate the effort. I have also doused myself in Body Shop's Neroli Jasmine body lotion and I smell like an angel... I'm guessing that two minutes at the stables will put an end to that.

Mum is cooking a roast today. It smells amazing and I can't wait to eat it. This is promising as the only thing I want to eat at the moment is chocolate, chocolate and more chocolate. Last night I was so desperate Mum donated the Trick or Treaters chocolate! It was that really cheap powdery chocolate but I love it because it reminds me of Christmas (even though they were chocolate ghosts, and chocolate pumpkins).

61 days till Christmas by the way! Just found this cute countdown http://www.christmassantaclaus.com/clock.asp. And yes I did just send Santa a letter...Santa is currently writing back...most unusual.

Here was my letter to Santa:

Dear Father Christmas,
My name is Laura. I am a girl and I am already 21 years old!! I live in the great city of Tywyn. Of course, that's in Gwynedd, United Kingdom, but I'll bet you knew that!! This year I've been so good that my halo is just a teensy weensy bit crooked!
Father Christmas, some things I might like for Christmas this year are:
- Snow;
- New Riding Boots; and,
- A set of GHD's.
Father Christmas, I almost forgot to say... If Ryan Reynolds was under my tree on Christmas morning that would not be a bad thing!
Love, Laura

And here was Santa's reply:

Hello Laura!!
Thank you for sending me your email all the way from Tywyn! The Net sure is wonderful because now I never feel lonely all the way up at the North Pole. I can get those wonderful Christmas emails any time of the year now, but it's always special when I get one from you, Laura.
Well bless my whiskers, Laura, you're getting to be quite a big girl! Wow, 21 years old already! Pretty soon you'll be too big to sit on Santa's knee! Well, even though you're getting a little older Laura, Santa's glad to see you still have the Christmas Spirit. I also hear you've been a really good girl. (Of course, you won't mind if I do a little checking, will you? HO!! Ho!! ho!!).
Let's see what you put in your letter for Christmas wishes: 1. snow; 2. new riding boots and; 3. a set of ghd's. The elves really like making those presents so I know they'll be happy to hear that's what you want. Of course, there are a lot of good boys and girls in the world and only so many presents so I hope you won't be too upset with me if you don't get everything you asked for this Christmas.
Before I forget Laura, the elves really want you to visit my new blog! It is called Santa Claus' Christmas Blog. My blog is all about Christmas, life at the North Pole, and me, Santa Claus ! You can even write messages to me and see what others have written. I can hardly wait to see what you write!
HO!! Ho!! ho!! Rudolph wants to take me for another test ride in the sleigh so I better get going! The new sleigh is 'Internet-equipped' so I can even get your emails Christmas Eve when I fly around the world! Take care Laura and don't forget to come back and visit me here at EmailSanta.com on Christmas Eve!! And remember... only 62 more sleeps until Christmas!!
All My Love,

Father Christmas

Mood at the end of this blog: Greatly Improved. Thanks folks.

Bye for now.

"When it comes to life and love, why do we believe our worst reviews?" Carrie Bradshaw.