Hmmmm...

It appears folks, that I have been fooled by an elaborate wind up. There is no one else, it was just a joke. Hmmmmm.

I have also discovered that he is an avid reader of my blog. So big shout out to him.

Yes, against my better judgement, I met up with him tonight. I don't know why. And I don't know that he did either. Maybe to see if I'm OK and ease his guilt. I don't know. He's made me believe again that there is no one else and that he just wants to be alone. But in a way that is harder to accept because then I start to think: "Oh well then, it's just that he doesn't love me anymore". At least if it was someone else I can blame then and not be thinking what did I do?

Anyway, enough about that. I had my job interview this evening. It was scary as hell. We were put in groups and had to do a little presentation. Then we had an individual interview. With some horrible on the spot questions like "Name a time when you went out of your way to help someone". And it's not that I haven't, it's just that in that split second I couldn't think of anything! I eventually came up with "Sometimes I dressed up as the Honey bear". I mean...wtf! So, I won't be expecting to get that job then. The fun bit at the end though was getting a free reign of the shop to create an outfit for "A girls night out". That was fun. Building a dream outfit!

So readers, this evening I am most confused. My feelings are all over the place as to what I want to believe and what is true and what I'm assuming. Not that it changes anything, he still doesn't want to be with me. But tonight he felt like the guy I loved. Very sad.

Bummed you out again there didn't I?
Bye for now.