Well, he finally admitted he left me for her. They're not together. Apparently she doesn't want to be with him. This hurts so much because I want him. Just the way he was. Now no-one has him and he doesn't want me. At least I know I wasn't being mad and paranoid. But I actually feel worse than I ever have. I love him so much, to think that I wasn't enough for him, and that I made him unhappy is unbearable. Please let me crawl into my bed and stay there forever. Everything thrown away for nothing. The stupidest thing? I still want to be with him! I still love him! I know that will fade in time but at the moment it's so raw you won't believe that I'm in actual, physical pain. I could cry and cry and never stop. I never even got a chance to make him happy again, he never told me. I don't understand at all. How can you just stop loving someone? This has been my most painful blog yet, and to my friends who have texted and I haven't replied, I'm sorry, but this is my explanation.
I'm not OK. I don't feel like I ever will be. I miss him. So much it hurts.
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chop his knackers off. ken.w
ReplyDeleteHey Laura, I've been reading your blog sporadically and I'm sorry to hear of your problems; I know we are not close and are only really fb friends but I felt compelled to show you my support.
ReplyDeleteI wish I could say something and make it all better but I'm afraid I once felt the same after a similar relationship; it will get better, it just takes time, I can't say when but it will pass.
You seem to have great friends and a wonderful family around you and to support you.
George
Thanks so much :) Means alot.
ReplyDeleteLove you.xx
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